I am a fool

Wisdom is a path you choose to take. Recognize the situation, understand the situation, and maneuvering through it. The opposite of wisdom is foolishness. Therefore, the path of folly moves away from wisdom.

A simple fool is someone who doesn’t think about the consequences. 

A fool is someone who refuses to think about the consequences.

But, a scoffer is one who laughs in the face of consequences. 

Each one is a progressive step in the path of folly. When we follow that path of folly, we essentially say to Jesus, “I don’t want your salvation.” And then God has the right to say to us, “If you don’t want me, then you won’t get any of the promises.” 

I find myself being a fool a lot because of a lot of my sins revolve around that sort of thinking. I don’t want to think about the consequences because it takes too much thinking. 
An example was, “If I really think about it, I know it’s probably a bad thing and it’s bad for me.” I do that a lot, especially in the area of lust (and acting out of that lust). I don’t want to recognize any of the repercussions, and therefore, can’t see any of them. Of course, this isn’t limited to just  lust, but many other areas of sin; it’s just most prevalent in this area. 

Other thoughts I had in the pool:

I don’t like confrontation. Many of my more broken relationships (or ignored ones) have never been approached, and in my mind, I don’t ever see myself approaching them. There are some people that I’ve hurt or that I feel like I have conflict with, and I can feel God’s tug at my heart to approach them before the year’s over.

I’m kind of jealous that AAIV is so organized. Because of that, they’ve been able to mobilize their members extremely efficiently this past year, while we’ve struggled to vision cast consistently. They’ve even finished leadership discernment before we’ve even finished interviews. I’m happy for their growth and their organization, but I’m a bit envious about what we don’t have. And it’s hard to put a finger on what it is we don’t have. 

Leadership is also something I shouldn’t worry too much about though. While I can try and constantly look for a big picture image, I will fall incredibly short of the grand scheme of God’s plan. As I was reminded in today’s interview, God has plans that are outside of ours. If I think for a second that we should have or should not have done in the past, I am discounting God’s sovereignty. I just need to spend time in prayer. 

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