Got Light? (my sermon notes from Day 2 Camp Impact)

John 8:12 – light of the World – “Light represents God”

1 John 1:5-12 We need light because the world is a dark place. Eph 6:12 states Satan is roaming around this world. 

  • v 5-6 living in the light: means you have accepted Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior
  • v. 7 Living in community: openly seeking accountability in your life
  • v. 8-10 Living in truth: constant repentance and coming back to God in humility

Which do you lack the most of? 


3 types of sins: 

  1. The sins in your life, and satan will keep you in the dark. 
  2. sometimes, if we are sinned against, we keep this pain in, and we are bound and can’t break free (Eph 4:32). Forgive so that you no longer have to be enslaved
  3. If you have wronged someone, humble yourself and approach them and seek forgiveness.

Jesus says come to the light and you can have life. 


2am ramblings

I’m studying about coherent light sources (lasers) at 2am in the morning and a thought struck me. 

“What do I want my final thoughts to be when I die?”

Assuming I know I’m going to die 5 minutes before I actually do, I want to know that I lived a full and dedicated life to God. For many people, I know that won’t seem like much. In most peoples’ eyes, religion, and christianity in particular, seems to bind a person down, telling them what they can and cannot do. On the contrary, I think christianity is very freeing, giving life purpose and making each moment of life more meaningful. In the course of my life, I probably won’t do things like “travel the world” and “go skydiving” – things that are often on most people’s’ bucket list. For me, I really want to know that I strived to know more about who God is, instead of trying to live a perfect life. 

When I die, like most people, I don’t want to leave this world with regret. I don’t want to carry any baggage into the afterlife. I don’t want to think back on life and say, “if only I did that” or “many, i really wish I didn’t do that.” Carrying a burden like that is a mistake because essentially what I’m saying to God when I carry regret is, “your blood on the cross doesn’t cleanse me of my mistake.” Jesus died on the cross so that I could know my Father in heaven, so that I could die without regret. 

When I die and go to heaven, I don’t want to reflect on my life and say, “I did my best” either. Simply put, the truth is I want to pass knowing that the best is to come. You know how when you play monopoly, you pass go, and get 200 dollars? If it’s late in the game, You dread playing the game at that point because you’re afraid of landing on other people’s properties. Well God will welcome us with open arms when we pass go/death. His KIngdom is a place where we’ve been welcomed into, because heaven is where we belong. Heaven isn’t the image floating in the skies above the clouds; heaven is the place where our greatest need is met with the greatest joy through knowing God and having a personal relationship with Him. When I die, I want to have complete faith that whats to come is infinitely better than what has happened.

So yeah, I’m kinda looking forward to death. Does that sound a little bit morbid?  

Today is my 8th Rebirth-day

8 years ago today, sometime around 9pm, I accepted Christ into my life. This was the day where my life changed forever. I didn’t change as a person, didn’t become smarter, or get better in any way. Eight years ago today, I became a child of God. I became aware of His presence through His people. I had some amazing friends who invited me to attend Impact, a christian retreat organized by Houston-area chinese churches. It was at Impact that someone first shared the Gospel with me, planted a seed in my heart that would grow eternally. At that time, all I lived for was approval of my peers, parents, and the world’s standards of good/bad/perfection/imperfection.

To be honest, I only really remember one thing from Camp that year. The theme that year was “In Transit” and the speaker said something along the lines of, “our journey here on earth is a transitory one. We will all carry baggage from this life into the next. Do you want to carry all your baggage with you to the next one? Or better yet, what baggage do you want to carry?” God makes it very clear to us in Matthew 6:19-21 what we are to keep and what we are to let go of – in essence, our baggage.

19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy,and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

I think I remember that part of his message because it made the theme “In Transit” make sense. Some of my main thoughts were, “I’m living my life right now, for what? Where am I going? And why do I care so much about some of this stuff going on in my life? What is my baggage?” On the last night of camp, there was an altercall, a formal call for people to receive Christ. After mulling over all these thoughts, I prayed for maybe the second or third time ever, “Hey God, I believe that you’re there. So, if you are, please just reveal yourself to me.” 

And He did. I mean, He has done much more than just reveal Himself to me. In these 8 years, I’ve seen Him mold me over and over to be more faithful, more dependent, and more trusting of Him through the Holy Spirit. I have grown into a (not so) beautiful crabgrass. Except God doesn’t see me as a patch of crabgrass; he sees me as a blossoming flower in the midst of darkness. I’ve made so many mistakes in eight years. Oftentimes, I still find myself seeking approval from people rather than my God. And I’m sure that’s heartbreaking to Him, but grace is present again. I can’t say thank you enough to God for pulling my from the trenches and showing me what joy we’ve been promised. My life changed that day eight years ago, not just for the better, but for the best life I could possibly have. Not about succeeding and becoming a better person, but to life a life glorifying to God.

I am a fool

Wisdom is a path you choose to take. Recognize the situation, understand the situation, and maneuvering through it. The opposite of wisdom is foolishness. Therefore, the path of folly moves away from wisdom.

A simple fool is someone who doesn’t think about the consequences. 

A fool is someone who refuses to think about the consequences.

But, a scoffer is one who laughs in the face of consequences. 

Each one is a progressive step in the path of folly. When we follow that path of folly, we essentially say to Jesus, “I don’t want your salvation.” And then God has the right to say to us, “If you don’t want me, then you won’t get any of the promises.” 

I find myself being a fool a lot because of a lot of my sins revolve around that sort of thinking. I don’t want to think about the consequences because it takes too much thinking. 
An example was, “If I really think about it, I know it’s probably a bad thing and it’s bad for me.” I do that a lot, especially in the area of lust (and acting out of that lust). I don’t want to recognize any of the repercussions, and therefore, can’t see any of them. Of course, this isn’t limited to just  lust, but many other areas of sin; it’s just most prevalent in this area. 

Other thoughts I had in the pool:

I don’t like confrontation. Many of my more broken relationships (or ignored ones) have never been approached, and in my mind, I don’t ever see myself approaching them. There are some people that I’ve hurt or that I feel like I have conflict with, and I can feel God’s tug at my heart to approach them before the year’s over.

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