iPhone 6s

So, I preordered an iPhone 6s, and it will be arriving via mail today. Honestly, I’ve been waiting for this day for the last 4 months ever since I was eligible for an upgrade. What started as minor excitement has grown into an obsession – reading every review on the not-yet-released flagship phone, scouring for the best deal, determining what color and storage size to purchase, and the list goes on.

This morning, I hesitated, but I can clearly call it idolatry. While, I didn’t put my faith and trust in this singular device that I don’t yet have, I have let it consume my thoughts and attention. Even during the last two weeks when I was deliberating, I would pray sporadically to God that He would help me to use this expensive device for something other than a selfish purpose, that it might exist for something more than a status symbol or something to boast about. Today I’m willing to admit to you (my close brothers and sisters in Christ) that I’ve been failing at keeping that declaration to God and need help in this seemingly tiny area of faith. I know God wants submission to His will in all the areas of my life, including the areas of life revolving around every day life. To see every blessing I’m given as an opportunity to gather and grow His kingdom is something I am striving for. So my declaration today is a submission of my heart, that this iPhone will not continue to, nor ever become again something I idolize before God. Instead, it shall be seen as a gift and blessing that God gives just as He has given so many other things.

A last thought I have about this. I have been waiting eagerly and, at times, anxiously for the deliverance of this phone. In Luke 12:37, it says “Blessed are those servants whom the master, when he comes, will find watching.” While this is a parable of servants waiting on their master to return from a gathering, I think this can be equated to the simple devotion and patience we as delivers are supposed to have as we await Jesus’ return. Pray that I might grow in eagerness of Jesus’ return.


Got Light? (my sermon notes from Day 2 Camp Impact)

John 8:12 – light of the World – “Light represents God”

1 John 1:5-12 We need light because the world is a dark place. Eph 6:12 states Satan is roaming around this world. 

  • v 5-6 living in the light: means you have accepted Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior
  • v. 7 Living in community: openly seeking accountability in your life
  • v. 8-10 Living in truth: constant repentance and coming back to God in humility

Which do you lack the most of? 


3 types of sins: 

  1. The sins in your life, and satan will keep you in the dark. 
  2. sometimes, if we are sinned against, we keep this pain in, and we are bound and can’t break free (Eph 4:32). Forgive so that you no longer have to be enslaved
  3. If you have wronged someone, humble yourself and approach them and seek forgiveness.

Jesus says come to the light and you can have life. 

Surely we can change

This morning, I had a rude awakening to my mom lecturing me. My door was closed, but I was already awake. I had somewhere to be at 9am, and because I hadn’t left my room (or the house) by 8:50am, my mom took it upon herself to say the following. I’ll do my best to provide a rough English translation to her words.

“Why won’t you wake up? You’re always like this – waiting until the last minute to do everything. You’re going to turn out just like your uncle. He was always like this, being lazy and waiting until the end. If you keep doing this, you’re going to spend the rest of your life losing out and coming in second.”

Needless to say, not the best good morning I have ever received. I left the house for my 9am appointment just a little after that, but I chose not to respond to my mom while she was shouting about this.

On the drive back home from my appointment, I started reflecting on how best to respond to my mom. Of course, I wanted to lash out and point out the inconsistencies in her opinion, how they’re particularly offensive/harmful, and how judgmental she is. But I was listening to this song In my car, and it reminded me of how we are intended to love people as they are and be edifying in the process. For the LORD’s greatest commands are written in Matthew 22:36-40

36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”

37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’[a] 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[b] 40 All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

I’ve been reading crazy love as part of my 2-a-day devotional times. One of the passages I read two days ago that struck me is written here:

“The fact is, I need God to help me love God. And if I need His help to help me love Him, a perfect being, I definitely need His help to love other, fault-filled humans. Something mysterious, even supernatural must happen for genuine love for God to grow in our hearts. The Holy Spirit must move in our lives.”

As I was reflecting in the car, I asked God to intervene on my behalf. I know that I am totally incapable of loving well and righteously. I need his steadfast love to overcome my sinful desires. I naturally wanted to oust my mom’s opinions and assert myself as more knowledgeable and capable. But I know God would rather me be a loving servant to my parents who do not know Christ. My example to them everyday can and should be a testament of God’s grace in my life. Here are some of the lyrics that spoke directly to me.

“And I don’t know
What to do with a love like that
And I don’t know
How to be a love like that

When all the love in the world
Is right here among us
And hatred too
And so we must choose
What our hands will do”

I am a fool

Wisdom is a path you choose to take. Recognize the situation, understand the situation, and maneuvering through it. The opposite of wisdom is foolishness. Therefore, the path of folly moves away from wisdom.

A simple fool is someone who doesn’t think about the consequences. 

A fool is someone who refuses to think about the consequences.

But, a scoffer is one who laughs in the face of consequences. 

Each one is a progressive step in the path of folly. When we follow that path of folly, we essentially say to Jesus, “I don’t want your salvation.” And then God has the right to say to us, “If you don’t want me, then you won’t get any of the promises.” 

I find myself being a fool a lot because of a lot of my sins revolve around that sort of thinking. I don’t want to think about the consequences because it takes too much thinking. 
An example was, “If I really think about it, I know it’s probably a bad thing and it’s bad for me.” I do that a lot, especially in the area of lust (and acting out of that lust). I don’t want to recognize any of the repercussions, and therefore, can’t see any of them. Of course, this isn’t limited to just  lust, but many other areas of sin; it’s just most prevalent in this area. 

Other thoughts I had in the pool:

I don’t like confrontation. Many of my more broken relationships (or ignored ones) have never been approached, and in my mind, I don’t ever see myself approaching them. There are some people that I’ve hurt or that I feel like I have conflict with, and I can feel God’s tug at my heart to approach them before the year’s over.

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