I can’t sleep

God please let me know if this is a mistake. I don’t want to put my faith anywhere except in you. I remember all the logic and the understanding that we had just a few hours ago, but now it feels just jumbled and gone. I feel like I made a mistake, and I want to take it back. I miss her already and feel like I didn’t give it my all. I want to counter every point she made with an argument. I always say that you gave me a choice, but what if my choice was wrong. Regardless, I know that you will make it all clear to me over time. I know I can believe and trust in your plans for my life. And of course, I will do so. It’s just scary. Very scary. 

Please God, calm my nerves and my tears. Take from me this cup and fill me up with something eternal and worthy of praise. I lay my worry at your feet.