I just finished all my college finals yesterday, and I have already filled the joy-euphoria with frustration and to-dos. I very quickly filled my attention and to do list with new tasks and responsibilities the moment I finished the last one. I know I tend to do this, but it’s very off putting how quickly I can shift gears and forget something good that happened yesterday.
I’m constantly in a flow of to-do, check em off, next one ‘come at me bro’. This morning, the first thing(s) I thought about doing was cleaning, packing, planning out my day, and epic leadership meeting. I wanted to take a minute just to pause, but I thought that if I did, I would be swallowed up entirely by rush of life.
I should be filled up with a spirit of joy after getting through all the finals (and subsequently college), but I just feel so frustrated right now with the things I still need to do, things that need my attention and focus. I just want it to stop so I can enjoy the moment, although that might just be me being unwilling to change, unwilling to make sacrifices, or being unable to see a bigger picture.
How can I motivate myself to really spend a quiet time with God and not just do quiet times?
I was perusing my Facebook photo tags earlier this morning, and I realized something odd – I have less photos than normal. It took only a moment for me to realize close to 400 photos were missing because I blocked someone recently, and their photo tags went with them. But, that’s not the point of this post.
What really caught my attention was a lack of photo-tags in general. I don’t know what it is, but ever since the invention of smart phones, I’ve found that there are less and less photos being taken. The once doted Canon Elph cameras that every “cam-whore” wanted to hold in their purses are simply expensive paper weights that sit on shelves. Cameras, real cameras, only really see the light when people go on vacations, and even then, people choose to use their smart phones. The only growing market for cameras are for DSLRs; sadly, the average consumer doesn’t know how to use them. Good photography have been overshadowed by instagram filters and photogridding. And worst of all, people take photos to share with their friends what they’re doing at that moment rather than to commemorate something stupendous that happened today that you can look back on in the future.
It’s really cultural. It’s what all my friends do, and I’m not in a position to criticize them for doing it. I have an instagram too, but I hardly use it. My facebook is flooded with tags to low quality grainy instagram photos that just nag at me. I just miss the days where photo taking was something you did for yourself, and not for others. I miss good pictures where the flash actually brightened the photo instead of highlighting dark spots with a flash-light-like flash. I wonder how many people would still record moments in their lives with their camera phones if facebook/instagram immediate sharing didn’t exist. Life was simpler even two years ago.
I really respect one of my friends for her 365 day photo challenge. I can’t remember why she decided to start it, but I actually see life when I look through all of these posts. There is purpose, and purpose demands respect. Check it out: http://synergism.wordpress.com/tag/366-photo-challenge/
I’m sure we’ve all experienced this before. There’s someone who is signed online (Gchat/Aim) and we really want to talk to them. But at the same time, we can’t or we choose not to. Here’s a general breakdown of my current dilemma.